Every October my heart swells. It has become my most favorite month of the year. I've always loved Halloween, and fall leaves, and the weather in NY in October is often perfection. But in 2008 I gave birth to my son on October 21st. Three years later I gave birth to my daughter on October 20th. October is our month. We love it. We prepare, we decorate, we bake cakes, we fit in all of the fall fun, and we celebrate until we drop on November 1st. This year I felt a shift. Life